SM is the quiet typist by day who turns into a whip-wielding mistress by the night in a professional house of dominance
SM is the humiliation of discovering that your new slave is far more experienced than you are.
SM is being taken downstairs blindfolded and handcuffed. After you're stripped and tied up, the blindfold comes off, and you see it's soundproof
SM is the perfume of sweaty leather
SM is the lady doctor from out of state that you keep tied up in a cage all weekend, and you invite your friends
SM is falling asleep with your hands and feet bound - and the dreams.
SM is the guy at the party who asks if he can try on your handcuffs.
The Truth is.....Sadomachism is deriving of pleasure, especially sexual gratification, from inflicting or submitting to physical or emotional abuse.
Many people forsake a near to perfect relationship to be with someone that gives them more lows than highs. Or they struggle to please someone who constantly push them up the wall.
Perhaps the power of hopeless love forced us to withstand the pain.
Somehow, we are all addicted to the pain. And to our inflictor.
I reach for you now, but you're not there No more hope of holding your body in the moonlight Did I fall in love for nothing? No more hope of touching you, feeling you by my side Did I fall in love for nothing?
The music that played as the sun started to fade Our dream vacation was in my mind Just the other day I thought I heard you call I wake up, you're gone and there's no one to blame Was it nothing at all?
No more hope of holding your body in the moonlight Did I fall in love for nothing? No more hope of touching you, feeling you by my side Did I fall in love for nothing?
I'll tell you right away I want you back into my life But you are not the one, I will only dream of you tonight
It all comes down to nothing, only lessons learnt that will make us stronger.
Convulsion of emotions ran through me. Frustration, confusion and depression. I've failed in this game of love. I feel too much. Stoned the whole day. Why am i doing these? What was i thinking? Wat am i doing to myself? I can't face anyone, i have no answer.
Love is unfair. There is no equality in love. One will love more than the other. Then one would be taken granted for and end up getting hurt. Its a vicious love cycle.
I admit defeat, no one can ever change a man. They always slip back to their old self thus, making all efforts and love for em feel unrequired.
Not ready to take up responsibilites, i am going to hide away for awhile.....
Last night was one of my worst clubbin experience ever. I was shaken up. i saw everything clearly eventhough intoxicated. i saw how 'ugly' the people were. But i end up hurtin my loved one terribly in the process.
I am sorry Shawn. I was wrong. I've let u down. You are the few that really cares.... You meant a lot to me. Thank you for loving me.
But it's not so bad You're only the best I ever had You don't need me back You're just the best I ever had
And it may take some time to Patch me up inside But I can't take it so I Run away and hide And I may find in time that You were always right You're always right
Work is tiring. There ain't no satisfaction nor incentives to keep me going. My 13th month bonus is still unheard of. Everyday is a drag with my shopping list jam packed.
Worn out from last night's bickering, i tried to keep my spirits lifted with the small talks happening around me.
Well, Big boss's son actually went up to an engineer and told him to hand in his resignation even before the retrenchment excercise expected in March. GOSH! That is sickening. In that way the company don't have to give him any form of compensation.
My boss tried to increase my 'self-worth' by sending me to JB to set up a system and put me in an areospace training program. Helll with it. I wanna leave cause i've had enuff of their system but GIVE ME WAT I WANT AND I WILL GO AWAY!!!
Tis company is such a money eating machine, a cold heartless monster despite us toilin in a WW2 working environment.
Yesterday, my budddy called me. He told me what happened to him on New Year's Eve. He went on about wat happened, what he did and didn't do. Its so queer. because wat he told me contradicts who he really is. To me he is the i'll-try-to -fuck-U kind of guy but that night he became the "virigin" boy resisting all temptations. Hmmm i feel that u can't change overnight unless its cos of the love for someone, you'll restrain from doin certain things.
Musique
Anything that satisfys from soapy classical to angst rock
Detestes
Cheaters, Smelly folks, Mr and Mrs Know-All
Fetish
Brownies, baileys, clubbing, slacking
